Just to inform all of you, people with poor mental health and severe consistent anxiety and depression can’t just “not worry” about things lol. I appreciate the words of support, I’m trying to keep my head on straight but the fact that the world is more concerned with a dollar than a human life is really taking a toll on me.
My company has a bonus policy, I should have made 2 bonuses worth thousands last week, I performed an emergency install to keep surveillance on Baltimore county’s emergency supplies, working around EMTs and first responders coming in from the field, but because the company is slow right now we’re not getting bonuses. So not only is there no compensation for the risk, but my company is making thousands extra off of my risk and labor right now and telling us that we’re thin on money right now. Oh and I’m about to do it again this week, and this won’t be an emergency thing, just another ten thousand dollars in profit for my company for me working out in this world right now. Oh and my wife works at a pharmacy and drug store dealing with sick people all day and is not compensated at all for it. I’m convinced we’re both doomed to catch it right now because of our circumstances and we could die from this shit for minimal pay and our bosses will just shrug their shoulders and hire a replacement.